Saturday, 2 February 2013

So from here we are born..

I have done it, finally and definitively, I have decided that I need to vocalise.

This year is The Year of the Fire Dragon, my year. My life has come full circle. On the 10.02.2013 the new cycle begins and my year has finished. I've been told that in Chinese Mythology your year is an extremely difficult year and is full of challenges that will test you and that you must overcome. This year has been such a year. But it also heralds my rebirth, I have risen from the flames, and when I head out to Hong Kong to celebrate this most momentus of occasions I shall be getting a tattoo to commemorate it. I have been in conversation with an artist of the highest calibre and finally the design is done, and when I land in the hubbub of Hong Kong I shall be risen, and ready to face the new cycle of my life.

Up until now there have been challenges in my life, I will not recant the past, and I pray I will not make the same mistakes again. I feel that I have learnt the lessons my history has taught me and now, now I must do like it says; confine history to history.

So what is my starting point? I am starting from an even keel which is all I ever asked. I am single. I quit my monotonous and back-stabbing dip-shit dull day job - I am setting up a company and going by my wits and no other's. I owe no money, and I only have enough for said new company and Hong Kong. I am now a non-smoker and as a consequence I have regained my breath, and I am striving for fit and healthy. I shall work my 6'4 frame back into strength and fitness. Perhaps I will take rugby up again and have a final fling with the battlefield. Maybe. I share a house with a flat mate. This year I shall have my own place. I am growing and I need room to flex.

So there am I. So what about around me? Where do I stand with environment? My family is spread around, I'm sure we shall all learn more about them here at my Pulpit over the coming aeons. I have some good friends, some bad friends, some 'are they friends?' if not what are they. This mostly applies to a couple of women (we shall learn more at the Pulpit), and a few dudes who were friends whilst we all smoked together.. but now.. is it because I have regained my wits I see more and like less? What scares me is that this applies to the locally based member of my family too. This shall be explored here at the Pulpit too. I have about 167 friends on Facebook. I rarely use Facebook except as a more relevant form of press. I read it as I might a newspaper. I do know all the people on my Facebook, although in recent times brief acquaintances have found their way on. Do people cull? I have never been one for collecting people, it just seems ridiculous to me. A hangover from this 'I want to be famous' shite. And to that end when I return from Hong Kong I am going to cull Facebook. Shit, I'm going to cull my mobile too. There are people I spend time on who just do not seem to reciprocate, and others that are just negative people toward me. I want positivity and happiness. Enough of the darkness. There are so many lovely, kind, smart and funny people out there I know I no longer need to waste my time with those that aren't. It prevents me from meeting the wonderful people who are. And if I've got any advice.. when you meet these good people hold them tight, and discard the others. Don't muck around. You don't have to. This I have learnt.

It shall be a process going through and trying to understand some of my, let's just refer to them as friends for now, and we shall explore them as I decide whether they should stay or whether they should go. I only ever ask for three things in anybody.. they must have a good heart, they must be honest, and they must be open (you can of course be publicly private, but still be privately open). That is all.

So I'm in a good, strong position looking forwards. And I am looking forward to the future too.

I am opinionated, I will offend when I speak my mind, I will strip things down to simplicity and call them as they are, I will rant and rave when the urge overwhelms me to do so.

I am reborn, and I am going to decide my position, no-one else. And I will not apologise. My life's cleansing begins when I return from Hong Kong.

We are going on a journey, so hold on tight.

1 comment:

  1. Well, when I learn how the hell a person follows another on this site, yours shall be a blog I follow. I'm pretty sure I follow blogs, so shall seek and discover.
    In all seriousness, I like your first blogging (is that the correct term?) and I look forward to reading more of your discovery and such.
    I also hope to become a friend. As you know, it's been a dark couple of years but I think the light is starting to shine.

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